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03 November 2008, 11:16 PM
Sometimes - or everytime - I don't understand why. Why I have to be the one doing everything while your 3 sons have to do nothing. Is it because of the fact that I'm the only daughter? Or is it because I'm the oldest? C'mon, the oldest of your son is already 11. ELEVEN! I remembered when I was 11, I had to do this and that. And now when he is 11, what does he have to do? Nothing! He spends his day out with his friends and all, while you will complain if I go out every fucking day. When I was only 8, I had to take care of the 2 boys, and cook for them.I willingly learnt how to cook rice, so that you could work in peace without worrying about not having any food at home. I would do the dishes after that, and sweep and clean the floor. My main motive was to see you smile when you reach home, to let you know that I'm a reliable daughter and older sister. I was only 8 then. And now, your second son is already what, 9. Can he do any shits? No. He like a retard, not knowing anything. All he does is play and play, and now his terrible results are out, you didn't even scold him. You just asked why was it so bad. And for me? You didn't even freaking congratulate me. I remembered when I was in primary 5, I was the 1st in class. I thought that you would be so proud. When I told you about it, all you said was "Oh, that means your classmates are not so smart". You underestimate me, thinking I'm some kind of stupid person who will always be last in class. But if any of your sons is the first in his class, I'm sure you're gonna hold a humongous party. You obviously don't appreciate me at all. These words, you say it once every year, I'll always remember: "I don't need you as my daughter. I already have 3 sons, it's enough. I don't have to take care of you, it's easier" You know, since you so wish I wasn't born, why not make your wish come true? Sell me away, or I can always run away from home by myself. I'll find ways to support myself. I don't need a mother anyway. I can live without you. I'd rather have no mother than have one who apparently treats me like shit, who only loves her sons. And the way you gossip about me to your friends, it's too much. It's not as if I don't understand Tagalog. I understand it perfectly. I understand what shits you're gossiping about. Okay I just know that you are so damn biased and unfair and you suck most of the times/sometimes. But I still love you because you are my mother...I woke up at 1.30pm today. I know it's very late :/ Com-ed for awhile, then went over to Emmanuel's. Sacha was already there. The trip there was dangerous. I almost slipped I don't know how many times, haha damn paiseh! Went to buy peanut flavoured waffle at a bakery shop :D {unnecessary information} Went there to watch Wall-E. After Sacha went home, watched The Eye 10. Emmanuel walked me till there, and we separated to go to our houses (: Reached home at around 9pm. {unnecessary information, again} Goodnight chocolates ♥ |
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