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19 February 2008, 5:56 PM
Life still has to go on. & I have to move on.A day since we broke up. It was tough. I seriously didn't want to go to school. I wanted to stay at home till I die. Woke up at 5am. I couldn't get to sleep. Cried till my eyes wierd wierd derh. When I woke up, the first thing which came to my mind was : "Eugene and I broke up. No more looking forward to school". I prayed so hard that I will get sick. & God listened to me (: I LOVE God so much. Yeah yeah, I'm sick :D Hahas, probably love sick nia. But who cares. I just know I'm running a temperature. Went to school with Sheela, Jia Jing, Sacha, Sharleen, Jane and Iqa. Didn't dare walk into school. Didn't want to see him. Well, I only saw him thrice the whole day. Had Maths common test. & You noe what ? I'm so gonna flunk it. And teacher wants an A1 from everyone. Possible from everyone, but not me. I didn't bother studying. I didn't bother doing Chinese homework. I didn't bother bout anything. Why should I, anyways?? Cuz in the end, we're all gonna die. Had Chinese last period. Had spelling. & I didn't study. But my brain was helping me (: But I copied too. Cher didn't even realised. Pratically the whole class copied. I even placed my spelling list right in front of me. Suddenly, tears dropped on my paper. I remembered having chinese spelling last year. Eugene was always the slowest one... Ms Lee had to stand right beside him to wait for him. It was so damn adorable (: Haish ... There's no point pointing all these things out now. He's my nobody. It feels wierd. I feel.... empty. "Maybe we're trying, trying too hard, Maybe we're torn apart" Had netball training after that. During my 25mins break, saw Eugene. He was with Valerie they all. I tried not to care. Okay, I admit I was jealous. But I'm in no position to be jealous. Unless you count loving him like crazy a position. Ha ha. He still can be so happy, smiling away, When I couldn't even fake a smile. He seriously is enjoying the breakup, huh?? Duh, or why would he initiated it in the first place? How could this happen to me??? ='( Coach was seriously cruel. She made us do 50 push ups under the bloody hot sun. The ground wasn't those smooth type. It was ridiculously rough. Coach is mad. But who cares. I'm willing to do more. If it means I might die just like that. Well, my fuckingly rotten life has to go on. I must be strong , I won't give up easily (: Haha, as if. I miss him alot. I miss him so much. I even miss the time when we quarrelled. I miss every single thing about him. I still kept the green paper frog he folded :D I'll keep it for the rest of my life. Or should I just burn it?? Suggestions, anyone? I just know, I miss and love him more than I did yestd. Cuz with each passing day, it's just like that. I don't love you like I did yestd. Cuz I love you more each day.. Till here. ='( |
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